I’ve been drinking quite heavy for a few weeks now. I know, I should just hold it up for a while before it gets out of hand. But I really don’t want to. I’m not entirely sure that I can even. Sure it’s a bad habit and it’s going to get me into a lot of trouble if I keep it up, there no point arguing about that at all. But I like it and how it makes me feel so much. I just can’t let it go; I just want to drink all the time. Really I should seek help; I am most likely a borderline if not a proper alcoholic. But you do need to be quite motivated for these cures to work. I don’t really sincerely want to lay off the booze right now. Perhaps I’m going to change my mind and sing to a different tune once I have managed to fuck stuff up enough to put me in a spot I can’t get out of by my own device. That will happen too; in the long run it’s probably inevitable. And I don’t want the juice getting in the way of other things that are important to me. I like driving my car for example. I especially like driving when during winter season. I have already bought new tyres for that purpose. You should too by the way. Buy winter tyres for all kind of cars quickly and easily at Goodgrip.co.uk. Anyhow I can’t drive of course while intoxicated. So that means then that I got to stop.

I’m getting bored. There really not all that much I can do about it. But to me boredom is like an acute and abysmal feeling closely related to a hardcore anxiety attack. Its hits me in the midriff and makes feel like I’m drowning. It can happen at any for no reason, even in circumstances where I’m normally quite confident, relaxed and which I’m mentally engaged in. When boredom strikes, at work or at home I usually try to break the spell by visiting the auction/shopping site lauritz.com. For some reason looking and cool old stuff makes me feel better and steals away my mind from thoughts on the meaningless of life in general and in doing something at all specifically. That’s worth a lot, even you don’t find any bargains.

These damned academic things! Right when I thought I was out, they pull me back in if you will (probably not). What I mean to say is I thought I was free of these studies and surveys as of the day I left school. But never say never apparently. Now I’ve got to do a big survey on my company’s behalf on the public view on some of our products. Which are quite good as they are and which items are on the verge of becoming obsolete? My feeling right now is that I’m probably best off consulting a firm who specializes in this sort of thing. If that’s too expensive or not possibly due company regulations or something like that I’m hoping that I at least can requisition some professional survey tools. That would definitely make my job a whole lot easier.